I want this place GONE.

Hello Neocities, it is your favoritest boy back here again. So. I started high school which is pretty cool except for the fact that I know literally nobody. I started at this school last week and holy moly bro. So lemme give some context first. This is my first time at an actual public school so its scary. My whole life Ive went to a magnet school, or a gifted school. There was about 70 people in the entire grade, and almost all of us had been there since kindergarten. So we all grew up together, we all knew eachother. But then I graduated. So now I go to a larger public school with almost 3,000 kids, of which I only know about 4. Throwing into the mix that I also am terrible at talking to people and have severe social anxiety, that doesnt look to good. Have I also mentioned I have blue hair now? Yeah. I kinda look like Aoba Seragaki now, so thats pretty cool. Ive been eating lunch alone, and Ive only talked to like 3 people. And I also sit next to this barely functioning autistic kid in my english class, which would be okay, except he keeps talking. I can't stand it. Like, lemme make this known, I am not ableist and im actually a little bit on the specturm too BUT holy shit this kid is annoying and I dont know how to talk to people so im scared im gonna piss him off. And I dont wanna do that. On top of all of this, everyone at this school is super fucking tall which sucks because im barely 5'4. So im 5'4, have blue hair a pronouns, requested a name change, and have like a hatsune miku keychain on my backpack. Im a little scared Ill get bullied. Except im not actually scared ive just accepted it as a fact that itll happen. But whatever. Blog updates will probably be a lot more common now because I now have a study hall. And my school barely gives any work aanyway so my only option really is to write, or code. Soooo that leaves me with too much time for ts. Ive literally seen kids fuckin vaping in the hallwau too?? Like vaping is whatever but Im just surprised nobody gaf. I think i look pretty cool so that makes me wonder why nobody has gone up and talked to me yet. I think i might have really bad resting bitch face. My only "friend" is an emo junior that called me a cuck on the bus. Im also in JROTC so thats hell. I already got in trouble for falling asleep during JROTC which is kinda lowk funny. The teacher was just spewing his whole life story and like idgaf at all???? I came to the conlusion that I have really bad hypersomnia, so I'm almost always tired. At my last school id fall asleep in at least 1 class a day, and it wasnt uncommon to fall asleep in every single one. So its kinda ass tbh. I got called disrespectful by the JROTC teacher but like, yeah. Fuck yall, and fuck ur propaganda. Im like. Im excited for the actually fun parts of JROTC but im absolutly dreading everything else. Ive been really obsessed wtih DRAMAtical murder recently. I bought a fuck ton of merch, and i changed my pfp on almost everything. Im so so normal!! Now thinking about it I should probably be talking about my trip to Brazil instead of complaining but eh ,,... I love acme iku so much i love her i love acme iku sm